came home late again. about 815pm. had rehearsal at 4pm... timed the pieces today and stuff. more rehearsals to come. then we had live ad mtg after that, which ended like nearly 730 lar. hope it'll turn out okay tmr morning!! aahh.


anyway, talking about yesterday first.. didn't go to sch for lessons. instead i went to _j to sell our piano concert tickets from 9am to 1pm with junqi and enqing. whoaa the extra sleep was just sooo heavenly. but the trip there was simply a waste of time. really. and here are some observations that will make the heads of many victorians swell (by the way i'm just saying how we felt):


1` very soon after we entered the school and walked down towards the general office at the second floor we could already feel the sense of ulu-ness, isolation and alienation.. the feeling of coldness filled the place too. unlike our sch, where u feel the warmth...


2` after getting the nod of approval we stationed ourselves near the canteen. hah enqing quickly took out his math tutorial to do! lol. well he managed to complete it. hmms. and for the most of the time we found ourselves people-watching. junqi was the one who kept asking ppl to come forward to buy our tickets and stuff. and we kena dao-ed several times. many would just pass by u without turning to look at the booth, even as junqi was talking. neh mind.. cos that wasn't the only thing.


3` then junqi attempted to identify couples so that they could perhaps go for the concert together? lol. so she started to explain who are the ones who might be together and stuff.. heh sounded like an expert at such things. ahhaha. some ppl were nice and helpful to tell us that they would ask their friends, but oh wells, after they went off cos they said they had lectures they never returned. gahhh.


4` and enqing heard this guy who walked past us mumbling, "those 3 fools (something like that la) still selling tickets there..." oh my goodness lar. how could he say sucha thing?!?


5` in terms of looks for the ppl there.. haha. i think for the guys it's around the same as for our side. for the gals, according to enqing, vj's ones are better. heh.


anyhow, so we sold a grand total of....one ticket that day. so pathetic right. asked daphne to get the piano ens. ppl there to come down to our booth to support, but only about two came, but neh bought. oh wells. at least i received two more orders from the new chairman yesterday night. :)


oh and i met tiffany tan and cheryln too! haha cheryln was still as cheery as ever. heh. anyways, so we lunched at mos burger at j8, and saw many _j peeps there. then i heard two of the gals who past by us say something like, "vj one..." huh? well anyway junqi left for home after that, while enqing and i took a one-hour ride from there all the way back to vj, cos he had college day rehearsal and i had the last salsa lesson at 4pm. ahahas he started falling asleep in the bus first, then soon after he began to bump into me occasionally. lol. but it soon became my turn to do so too. heee.


as for today, sigh. i feel dumber than ever. i've really fallen. i miss those days back in sec sch whereby my marks were desirable or to my satisfaction at least. but now...... :( everything's in a mess. my position's like one of the top few... from the bottom lar. then u see so many ppl being very happy, asking around and asking u how much u got. uuuurghhh. i can't stand this feeling. something's very wrong with me i guess. then i was still thinking about it when he asked me (and some others) to come in front for a "talk". and he wasn't tactful at times. thanks. like he just doubled my pain in me then. and at one time i was laughing at some stuff and i knew that if i wasn't careful, i wouldn't be able to hold it back. heh carol was asking if i was crying while i was laughing.. nah i was just laughin' then...but...


well jeremy was kinda consoling me and stuff after that and after chem lect today. thanks ya? luckily that pat on me didn't make me feel even worse such as to break down, but as he was talking to me my nose was like getting somewhat sour. oh wells this feeling repeated umpteen times throughout the rest of the day. and it didn't help either when we were walking to the bus stop after cca and the rest were like saying about results and how their triple sci classmates got all As and stuff. ='(

and i felt a lil' cheated. many ppl had been behaving as though they had no confidence in their studies and results etc. and others would say that aiyah, no more hope already lar. and things like how unprepared they were. in the end, they aced like nobody's business. oh fine.. wadeva.

dreamspired lost in fairytale land
7/14/2005 09:31:00 PM



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Tuesday, July 12, 2005

okay i'll be spending some time on cca this whole week. wonder how the situation will be like after the concert. hmms. anyway, had ycf rehearsal at damai sec on sunday morning. as usual. then we were told that all of us from the sd item will be participating in this year's ndp, with fiona xie (they say it's good news for the guys.. lol..) joining us heh. and perhaps i can begin to understand a lil' why ced and i (at least) think that chingay rawks exponentially as compared to ycf. i guess it might be due to the trainers in often emphasising on better moves etc etc.. then after everything they say "we want u all to just enjoy".. hmmm. and somehow i just don't find that kinda spirit in them unlike in chingay? oh well for those reading this pls don't think so much about it ya..


as for yesterday, we were having lunch at the canteen when isa caught sight of some "rich person" nearby. LOL. wearing some yellow shirt.. that we thought he was so victorian. heh. anyways, he didn't talk or mingle much with the gals, or even u-know-who. heee. well had to settle some live ad stuff (ahh live ad's this fri!!) ..and later some of us went to put up a few flyers in the canteen. hope people will notice 'em!! and so i left sch at ard 730 and i saw richie leaving sch too..


spent my afternoon on cca today again. but it's much more light-hearted today.. then i attempted playing marche militaire with mona on the piano at the concourse, and mona was like saying i was mad, cos i got the score from her just yesterday. heh. then yanning kept saying i pro.. took one day.. and my sight-reading and stuff... heee. well anyhow we also played the waltz there too.. then when mr ku came out of the piano room we immediately stopped and pretended that we were discussing about some stuff and weren't playing the piano. then mingli later told us that he asked her if it was a.t. and kelv outside playing the waltz. lol. so according to yanning she assumed that it was a compliment. ahahah. (=


oh my i didn't know he could hear us playing from the room la.. somemore he didn't say anything about our playing when he walked towards us.. oh and mingli said he asked why we were playing that piece, and she told him must be for fun lol. yeah wad.. it was uber enjoyable coming together with some others to play the 8 hands piece.. yupp ;))


heh i'm kinda tired nowadays.. was dozing on-and-off in the bus on the way home yesterday, that after some time i wondered if the person beside me was different. and was it a guy or a lady? lol. and i also found myself almost sleeping in the car to sch and in the bus home today.. the kind where u almost become unconscious of your surrounding. hahas..

ooh and something really hilarious happened during gp yesterday. as usual, everyone would read out some paragraph from the handout. then when it came to my turn... okayy it went fine. and all of a sudden nothing could come out of my throat. oops. and so i couldn't continue the rest of the parag, which was only a few more words to go. what is this... lol. heh and the three guys in front plus some of the gals sitting around me then were giggling. gahh. first time this sorta thing happened. and i really wondered how vanessa who read the next parag was able to not laugh after that, even though i could see that she was really controlling herself. wahahaha.. then i later tried to clear my throat to "revive" it, and those ppl who heard it (despite it sounding very soft) started to convulse again. -grins-

dreamspired lost in fairytale land
7/12/2005 10:29:00 PM



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