_____the human heart feels things the eyes cannot see & knows what the mind cannot understand

the joys of laughing `

Monday, September 22, 2008

"you do notice that the both of us are saying things "just for the sake of saying so, and then so what?" i can't believe that i'm doing this, and i'll stop."

no no. it's only you. i don't say things for the sake of saying so, please! "so what?" it's for your brain to decipher what ever has not already been covered by yours truly, albeit almost nothing. but then again. i just mentioned 'almost' didn't i? okay i'll let you come fill in on your rational logic on 'almost' being "not all, so it's different".

no no. you don't have to stop. or maybe you can't continue already? go ahead, i'm waiting.

okay now you wanna talk about the face-to-face issue eh. hmmm. you sure you don't want to address every point?

"i hope you remembered that i called you, before you hung up on me." oh! you called to ask me if i'm going for the group dinner. i asked "anything else?" you said no. so how did i hang up on you?

"so don't launch a personal attack on me, because i'll meet you now, if you're willing". yea i see you trying to take care of this face-to-face point eh. A for Effort (:

just before the previous quote:
"and i hope you remember putting go fly a kite as your personal message, i.e. "Leave me alone."" OMG LOL. i'm still laughing, sorry! here's another instance to add to the 8397521st.

i didn't know asking someone to go fly kite means to ask someone to leave me alone.

edit:
oh you just sent a definition from the idiom dictionary.
"Idiom Definitions for 'Go fly a kite':
This is used to tell someone to go away and leave you alone."

as well as from talkingcock.
"Derived from the English admonition "go fly a kite!" which means "piss off", "f off", "buzz off", etc, depending on your level of profanity-tolerance. Of course, we economical Singaporeans have removed the extraneous indefinite article."

OH. huhh? so there it says. "to tell someone to go away and leave you alone". and to "piss off". so topic sentence and subject matter concerns the idea of eff-ing off and NOT just to leave the person alone.

same here, i don't know why i'm so free to entertain such tons of hogwash from you. "you sure are enjoying this aren't you." i am Not. but time and Again, you still send a Reply.

dreamspired lost in fairytale land
9/22/2008 04:25:00 PM

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flying high `

there's a reason why i did it here, and not in a reply to your email (i shan't fill in any adjective before this word). in case you might still not get it (and even not ever getting it), which i suppose, it was my fault. i couldn't bring myself to respond to a sheer lack of prudence and judiciousness. i'm so sorry.

i could have just skipped the reply to your last email, but i'm being nice to point out certain things. fyi, that'd be the last one.

you "brought up the memory because i (you) think i felt as you did then. to a lesser degree i guess, but i hope you got the illustration i was trying to paint. (by the way, judging from the measure of your response, you don't seem to have actually gotten over things.)"

it's not mainly about me being affected about the bringing up of some unpleasant memory, but someone doing that for me. like, it was utterfly superfluous to use that as an example for one. and you're in absolutely no position to do such a comparison.

yes, you do need a dose of common sense.

you still felt that there was some implied intention to meet at some timing online eh? no way was that a hint, if there even was one. the only confirm thing about it all was that nothing's confirmed. not even an implied one.

"mm i like the taste of rational logic."

this, surely, has got to be the joke of the millenium. trust you, of all people, to say it. and to me! but nah, not the greatest joke, perhaps. cause my life has already been filled with quite a number, and if none of them possessed superior hold over this one, at least a cumulation of a sample of them would.

it's not miscommunication.
it's miscommunication in your head.

it was of particular interest how you actually got up (or got in, for that matter) to send me a third email, addressing every miniscule point i'd brought up in my previous entry. (oh no, you'd later come forth and tell me that it wasn't "every" point). and mind you, it wasn't just three emails, but with each additional one holding increasing marginal productivity of putting me in a state of disbelief and aggravation.

it wasn't so much of me being affected by what YOU said, but more of my disappointment in the level of sagacity one could have. not just about saying it, but even thinking about it in the first place.

for one, you could've had said it face-to-face, you know.

but i forgot, it's boys like you who're oh-so-comfortable behind that computer screen of theirs, and they feel wholly naked when that lil shell of theirs is blown over. or not less than a few metres from their reach.
ah, "the Book says so".

well done.

dreamspired lost in fairytale land
9/22/2008 02:29:00 PM

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i'm not an actor `

Sunday, September 21, 2008

this is a rant, so ignore it and don't read on if you wish, i'm saying it now. i might be sounding very mean, but right now my head's currently horded with the unneeded heat which is adding on to my existing's.

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when nothing's confirmed, nothing is confirmed.
does it matter if i reply after the recipient of the text message has gone to sleep?
(ps: some background info, the message wasn't anything important)
...oh now you say it's "a recount of the events".

no one asked you to wait.

besides, how'd i to have the slightest idea that you'd be waiting?!
you never even hinted.
it was such a pleasant revelation when you finally texted me to ask "when are you gonna come online? been waiting." like. wow.

was it my charge that you were "disappointed at not being able to meet" me in the end?

was it my liability that "it doesn't make me feel any better to know that you were out with a common friend of ours, and to chance upon this information in the most unexpected way too"?

doesn't mean i said that i could meet you at time t pm, means that i'd get home by t pm and meet you online when we've decided not to meet already.

cause people are rational beings.
(i suppose i don't need to explain how cogent it is to be when
you change your plans when your plans have changed.
it's just like Consumption decisions that we all make
- sorry i just had to add this.)
oh i forgot. "people in general".

doesn't mean you inserted the word 'thought', means that you can be excused for saying such baloney.

rational thoughts, please.
more rational, if need be.

jap words on your personal message on msn, eh.
as if i couldn't get them deciphered!

"dearest phyllis"?
oh no i'm not your dearest please!
"warmest regards" which you signed off with?
aww. that was oh-so-warm (:

extra:
"as warm as you read it to be. it's only words, and words are all i have now."

have you had any idea how words possess the potential to obliterate everything?

[another email from you just came]
ooh. additions eh.

"maybe I shouldn't have added that last line"

"it just affected me that i was waiting at home and you were doing other things, and i eventually had to give in to fatigue. i felt ignored. do you recall the feeling like that when ________ left you waiting?"

you broke me down on this.

"it's ironic how things have turned out..."
"i really want things to work out. really, really."
"i really want to make things work."
"from the bottom of my heart, i'm Truly sorry for making you upset."

"it saddens me to know that our friendship has degenerated so rapidly. where's the trust? who's thinking too much now?"

you DARE to say.

oh. please go to marina bay.
and buy a kite too when you're there,
if you haven't already gotten it.

best of all, you had to unearth one of my past unpleasant experiences. yea sure, but before you do that to anyone else in the future, please do think twice.

really, really.
(:

dreamspired lost in fairytale land
9/21/2008 06:52:00 PM

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detourne `

this thing in the foreground of the picture is not ice-cream or some cream, contrary to what yours truly had assumed to be! it's mousse! ((:

yeap, so i finally had my turn at 2AM yays!

attended the last bit of nussu agm on friday night. nothing much for me, but i found out (from a fellow member) that i'd be awarded some distinction cert on next week's appreciation dinner. haha. anyhow, it was a pleasant time meeting up with some friends whom i haven't been seeing around pretty recently. i really laughed, and smiled.

dreamspired lost in fairytale land
9/21/2008 06:00:00 PM

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