_____the human heart feels things the eyes cannot see & knows what the mind cannot understand

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Friday, August 01, 2008

i was almost done with an email to some company, when "internet explorer has stopped working"... "restarting". i went s***. went back into gmail. OH gmail! it saves your drafts and all those half/quarter/semi/nearly-finished emails! phew (:

anyway. yesterday.

oweek day one. as foreseen, oweek to arts camp was like a pea to a pear. not so much in terms of the size, nor the additional letter 'r' of course, but the egggcitinggNesss of it! wooo. anyhow, after all the talks and whatnot, we finally had games. around campus aka campus tour. by the end of the day, i think my body couldn't take it already. hands turned icy when we were all the LT. and i guess my nose didn't quite like me then.

next day. today.

overslept. and i reckoned it wouldn't be judicious to still go down to school for day two, and also considering the state i was/am now in. nevertheless (oops), bus-ed down to meet wan for her supposed modelling appointment, only to find out from the assistant there that the two bosses of the company weren't around. and she was already all so gorgeously made up please. nevermind. it was more of the walking down that lane prior to reaching the industrial building. girls, please, never walk theeere when the sun's down! it was ogles, stares, gazes, looks, gawks, glances, gapes... (why do they all start with a 'g'!) and occasionally in bulk somemore. even at the building lobby. must make sure my wan doesn't go there by her own any time next time!

requested for my dad to come fetch us after that cause we didn't want to walk down that lane again. but we still did eventually - it was rather intricate for him to locate us apparently, plus the cumbersome traffic out there...

and then halfway on our way back, his car JUST stalled. without warning (okay, like, duh. or maybe not). right in the middle of everything. and in the middle of the heat. yes, if i say that it's hot, it really is hot. well i guess we were fortunate enough that the hefty traffic had kinda ceased a lil by then. anyways, so my dad got out, rang his friend in his attempt to jumpstart the car. apparently it was our faulty sensor. and in the process of oh-no-what-are-we-gonna-do, i spotted stares from afar. you know, those people with adam apples and armpit hair. in their cars. before i conveniently proclaimed them to be looking over due to our car breakdown, and at my dad who was standing outside at the boot, although i'd kinda believe that light really does travel in a straight line...

anyhow, it was quite a relief when the car managed to be revived eventually!!

so my dad dropped us nearby my place to satisfy wan's craving for sugarcane juice. with lemon! and she came over for some funnn! :D

oh yes, i finally had my durians. yays! yea, i know i shouldn't be eating any of them right now though! and it was like, six pieces? hee (:

dreamspired lost in fairytale land
8/01/2008 11:03:00 PM

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inconceivably purely instinctively `

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

woke up in the afternoon today.

when i opened my eyes for the first time this morning and tried to focus on the clock in front of me, i went *gasp* inside. 230pm. yea. oh gawd. well i didn't feel too well since yesterday night. drank my one-litre bottle in an hour or so then. and in the hour that followed after i woke up today, it was another five cups of chrysanthemum that my mom just happened to make (:

read myb during my breakfast/lunch. liked the way some of the articles were written. Playing the odds on page ten was pretty interesting. yea we know about data and probabilities, but "patients must not rejoice too wildly when they appear to have good odds, just as they should not give up when the picture seems bleak". and i guess this also tells a lot when it comes down to the other spheres of our life, especially when we are met with difficulties and whatnot. yeaaa it's me saying this!

the next page was more informative. on the relationship between time spent in quality familial activities and teen sex. mostly about "to better define whether parental qualities influence a child's sexual behaviour rather than vice versa", and that "most research on parenting and teen sexual behaviour simply look at whether or not a teen has had sex and not the degree of sexual risk taken". it was quite tacit in a sense to me, though.

next up: Coming of age. facts again, so if you'd like to know more about the visible signs of ageing and how is it that some stay youthful-looking longer (yeap, it's nature vs. nurture again!), read up!

and then the one on After death. the dualist/materialist debate. "those who believe in life after death generally subscribe to a dualist view of human nature. typically, they believe that the non-physical, soulish or spiritual part of us survives the destruction of the body." so yeap, body and mind. then we've got that materialists, who "deny that we have a dual nature and assert that every aspect of our mental life can be explained in purely physical terms". and hence, "all of our thoughts, desires, loves and dreams ultimately boil down to various kinds of activity within the brain. our intuition may tell us otherwise, but our intuition is often untrustworthy". yup, but i guess the focal point(s) of the dualist vs. materialist debate doesn't just narrow itself to the issue of after death, as this article does.

anyhow, although i'd agree that most of us would occasionally find ourselves in situations where we just feel about something but can't seem to elucidate or even pinpoint the details of the qualities that it exudes and hence the - according to the word of the day - dualist view, i'd pretty much also like to argue that a lot of our mental lives are actually influenced by the chemical changes in our brains, which in turn lead to our inexplicable emotions many a time.

in any case, remarkably, all these were in fact what a friend and i were just discussing about yesterday.
like, wow.

done with another one litre.

dreamspired lost in fairytale land
7/30/2008 05:56:00 PM

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to have, let go `

Tuesday, July 29, 2008

here's a peek into phil's day yesterday.
and i mean from 12 to 12.
should just draw out a piechart right.
but i'm lazy! :D

bizcom booth @ mf: 4 hrs; 16.67%.
giving out singtel brochures + mf prog booklets + nustyle discount booklets: 4 hrs; 16.67%.
rag comm meeting: 4.5 hrs (omgg); 18.75%.
meals: 0.5 hr; 2.08%.
sleep: 4 hrs; 16.67%.
misc: 7 hrs; 29.17%.

*figures rounded off to two decimal places (:

well it was all pretty okay. not too bad. why would it be, right! also met up and hanged around with some of the rhisky peeps who came down for their matriculation today.

i'm quite sure i didn't see wrongly.
but i'd still ask myself why, the encounter.
anyhow, it doesn't matter, anyway.
just... weird.
yea i know i reacted in a somewhat outlandish way and my reflex was almost instantaneous, but you know, as i say, it's when things come/go unexpected that you just go ahead with those instinctive actions?

rag comm meeting was looonnngggg.
in fact it was the longest meeting, ever.
started our sandmodelling as rag day is approaching.
and i became somewhat sleepy by the middle of the meeting.

decided to go out to fill my empty bottle. and chen lu also wanted to go to the washroom. we barely walked away from the meeting room. i knew that chen lu was in front of me, but i was only vaguely aware of my not-so-lighted surroundings in the secretariat then. i shifted my focus towards my right, before realising that there was... another person!! oh-em-gee. i totally freaked out (think fright night). screamed at my horror. and i guess everyone in the meeting room heard it; shawn opened the door to peek out and see what had happened. oh gawd. yes i was uber blur please. chen lu and i almost fell to our knees gurgling non-stop till we could really just start growing abs! stomach began to hurt laa.

must be the lack of sleep.

so meeting ended at nearly 1130pm. the four of us cabbed to the train station to catch the last train. well it turned out to be the second last one or something, but phew! (:

dreamspired lost in fairytale land
7/29/2008 12:05:00 PM

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i'm counting my blessings.
you should, too.

dreamspired lost in fairytale land
7/29/2008 12:04:00 PM

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